Dry lips bitch

ugly 666 old photo by Meri Karhu

En osaa hengittää

I'm nervous. So restless. I can't focus. I'm nervous with out a reason.
At least I think I am, unless my mind is playing tricks on me.
I don't know how to breathe. I don't know how to stay at the same place, cause none of them feels good.
Please, I hope I had some days off. So I could clear my head out, fix me.
Please I wish I could find the peace inside of me instead of this uncertainty.

Miksen osaa olla. Löydä rauhaa. En pysy paikallaan, en pysty keskittymään.
Tarvitsisin vapaata, selvittääkseni pääni. Happi loppuu.
Tiedättekö sen sanonnan, että jos asunto on sekaisin on elämäkin.
Haluan puhdistaa huoneeni kuin amfetamiinissa hammasharjalla joka nurkan ja mutkan.
Tyhjentää kaapit ja järjestellä ne kaikki uudelleen.
Sitten voisin ehkä taas olla. Hetken.

Maybe our family photo album

Photos by Tina Barney
I borrowed this photography book from our school's library and fell totally in love with her style of positions and situations in the pictures. The best is the old time, 80's and 90's-feeling you can taste from them.

You gaze into nothingness

I stole this picture from a friends random friends facebook haha

Go back

photos via valerie and carles

Poem ain't the same as a song

Caps from a movie called Himmel über Berlin (Wings of desire)

The sticker Saints

It's me

Vanamo, twinflower, linneaborealis,

Play a little warm

photo via wailintse
when i walked back home my nose was bleeding blood
as days go by i realise i still haven't done anything i so much wanted to
how good am i to waste my time on rolling around in bed doing nothing

This hidden part of my life you'll never find out

Photos via Manon des Sources, wailintse & mitoinkovie

How to make hot chocolate

Commercials from your childhood which made a huge impact on you.
I'm not sure was there even an older commercial before this. (I hate the background music!)
But this specific commercial was also run in Finland during the early 2000's.
In real life this way of drinking chocolate is actually pretty hard.
Because the one that has to eat the powder might cough and then the powder will be blown all over your partner.
Or if you are the one that drinks the milk, it might be hard to keep it all in the beginning of the kiss.
And to get the stuff mixed together you kind of have to spurt to each others mouth. It's not that close to french kissing, romantic, eh.

Green tastes good

Today it was the first time I put salad leaves in to the blender and tried a green smoothie.
In the result of one frozen banana, hand full of salad leaves and three slices of pineapple,
I was surprised the green ugly looking drink was actually quite good to be honest.

Things I wish I'd say

Shitty ugly quick sketchy thingy made during a boring ass stupid class.
I need money so I could develop some film.
I want lazy days for painting big works on wood and for long walks.

I may have given you the wrong idea

photo and caps from the Manor & The little women

When you see pretty girls and you wanna die

photo via Laura's flickr

All the flowers grow in every color and their shades

photos via rufflife and random tumblr ???

We recorded the new song! Would be nice if it's good material enough so we don't have to record it again.
Me and my shitty breathing. Me and my fucking nervousness.
The best friends are who know exactly how you feel most of the time.
I can share all the crap and depressing stuff I feel and I'll do the same for him.

Weird face

Odd face. An alien. Most of the times I don't recognize my self from pictures.
Shit I just spilled coffee on a white sheets!
Guess we'll record a new song tomorrow hopefully. Kisses

Sailor Moon complex

hah a joke

You might not see it, but I'm crying inside

photos via fffound
The way my eyes get heavy and I need to rest my self makes me scared.
I sleep the pain away every day after school. A couple of hours to get my strength back.

Kaikki on niin etäällä. Itse taidan olla yhtä etäinen.
Minne kaikki on menneet, tai sitten itse olen paennut muita.
Mun maailma on hiljainen ja mukavimmillaan valkoisissa satiinilakanoissa.
Pitkittyneet päiväunet on saanut mut pelkäämään. En saa pidettyä silmiä auki.

Crooked fake butterfly collection

Step one, find some old fashioned photo realistic stickers of butterflies (kiiltokuvia.)
Two, get an empty picture frame and set the stickers inside.
Finish the job with a nail and a hammer, hang up the diy fake butterfly collection.

I miss sleeping next to you

via Phil Jackson

Oh shit I'm late from school

Hey, just that you know. I'm gonna let my portfolio go dead for a short time.
My contract with a host company is ending soon, so that's why.
And they also raised their prices 50% so I can't see a reason why should I stay there.
Maybe I'm gonna change my host for the website or just build a new in Cargo collective.
Not sure yet. Even upgrading cargo is way too expensive, what a bummer.
I'd still like to have my own address but let's see, any suggestions how should I do.
My head, "??????? oh whatever too lazy, let's have some coffee."

If you think I changed my mind, it's not true, I'm still the same

photos via ffffound

Wish I was me a year ago

Last year I had pink hair, mermaid hair and rainbow hair. I was stronger, smaller, cuter and messing around.
Breathing in all I could get. This year my head is empty.
I guess it takes a year to figure it out.