I lied that would I like you

When ever I see this one guy, I get so angry. Teenager secret.
It's because we never talked after it was over.
And I'm so angry with myself from trying to be something that I was not.
And I'm angry with myself I did it with out real feelings and I was lying, lying for my own excitement.
In the end I could not even tell the truth 'cause I was too messed up. I was feeling wrong but I still kept on going because I didn't listen to myself. Stupid girl.
I'm angry with myself letting him treat me like I'm disposable. I'm angry with myself it took two days to get over him, he wasn't even worth it.
I learned a good lesson that time.
Don't do it for pity or boredom.